Friday June 11, 2010

Yesterday was a pretty ok day.  I don't know why but Thursdays are usually my nemesis so on Wednesday night I prayed to have a good Thursday and not be depressed and out of control emotionally.  So thanks to that prayer, it was a much better Thursday for me.  It was pretty boring but I'm just glad I didn't lose it and become majorly depressed.  Today was a pretty good day today too.  Robert had to work late again today so he was home to hang out with us this morning which was nice.  We had a good time together;) which was some much needed time together.  I was dreading today a little bit because it's pay day and my dad was expecting us to pay all the rent which we just did not have.  So I called him and told him what we could pay and when we could pay the rest.  I told him how sorry we were and once again told him we just can't afford to live here- that I don't feel right about paying late all the time.  And once again my dad told me that we would find a way and it wouldn't be smart to move.  I just don't know what to do.  I'm grateful for his and Patty's patience but I still hate this financial hardship were struggling with.  After crying and feeling worried and hopeless I said a nice long prayer and waited for some inspiration.  I didn't really receive any except to be patient and have faith.  And I'm determined to not lose faith or hope in this trial like most other times in my life when I've had trials.  So a little while after the prayer I felt much better.  My hubby was really sweet to me this morning and I needed that and was grateful for that.  The rest of the day was pretty uneventful.  I watched my friend from the ward, Brittney Johnson's little girls for a couple of hours.  I was probably a little too grumpy but I'm glad I didn't yell or get impatient.  After they left I just was kinda lazy.  It was so hot and sticky outside that my kids or I didn't want to be outside.  I'm sad to admit that I broke my streak and spent more time on the computer that my goal was.  But I'm not going to let that deter me from my progress and just keep to my limited time on the computer as I've done good with all the rest of this week.  Later on my kids and I had a movie date- we watched Shrek, ate some goodies and I let the kids have soda since it is Friday after all.  Then we watched part of the World Cup kickoff and had a fun little dance party.  It felt good to just be silly and have fun with my babes.  After that we ate some yummy home-made pizza that I made for dinner and then took a short walk around the block- it was hot and sticky but I wanted to get out at least once today.  When we got home I got the kids ready for bed and now they are each watching their movie choice since it's Friday- their one night to stay up late for the week.  It's been a pretty good day.  I'm so looking forward to having my hot hubby home for the weekend.  I'm thinking we might go to the beach tomorrow as long as it's not storming.  It's hot enough, it's free and it will be a good time.  I love family time- as long as I can control my crazy emotions... which I'm praying for strongly!