So much for a great start to a great week. Yesterday I was sick, sick, sick. I was nauseous and throwing up all day and felt so drained and weak and had a hard time breathing. I'm pretty sure it had to do with me trying to get back on my antidepressants and taking the pills along with a prenatal vitamin. So after being so sick I've decided to just wait on that and pray for help to overcome this depression until I can take the pills again. But despite being sick I felt a lot of peace and strength from Above that helped me to not yell at my kids or have any melt-downs. And I was so grateful for that. I missed on reading my scriptures but I still said my prayers. I really was so sick and had a hard time just getting through the day.
Today I felt better but was still pretty unproductive. I did read my scriptures and gained so much comfort and peace from that. Robert flew to Virginia today for his job interview. He said he felt like it went pretty well- he interviewed with 5 different people. He's home tonight- I'm so glad he didn't have to be gone over night. I have felt peace as I've thought about moving to VA for this job. It would be so helpful for the great pay increase and I just feel that if Robert gets this job that this is the direction Heavenly Father wants us to go. I have faith that great things will await us and we will be ok- if not better. My kids were playing in the basement all day which was nice because they weren't bored and bugging me. But now the basement is even more of a disaster. I'm praying I will feel even better tomorrow and have more energy so I can finally get my house clean and laundry done. It's so overdue it's ridiculous. Baily has slept in her bed 2 nights in a row without any problems which is wonderful. Tonight was not as smooth sailing as she got scared and wanted me to lie down with her until she fell asleep which I wasn't too happy about but I did it and I'm glad I took that time to comfort her and show her how much I love her. She grows up every day and I realize how fast my time with her as my little girl is slipping away. I am going to cherish the tender moments with my kids more and strive to enjoy each little moment. They are my life and I am so in love with them. I am so blessed and so grateful to get to be the mom to such perfect, sweet little beings. Oh how I love them! My little Joaquin's rash is finally clearing up. He threw up at dinner tonight but I think he was just gagging because he didn't have a fever or get sick after that. And I had a breakthrough because I didn't get mad or frustrated when I had to clean him or the mess up- I actually enjoyed being able to take care of my baby boy. While I was watching Glee tonight (love that show!!) he was so cute- he sat next to me and cuddled with me and sang and danced along even though he was sooo tired. It was so sweet. So even though I'm not too happy with how unproductive I was or the state of my filthy house I feel content and at peace right now. I'm loving my role as motherhood instead of resenting it and that feels good. And I feel at peace about our future... come what may and love it!!
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